December 24: Everything’s OK.
Waht was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incoporate that discovery into the year ahead?
I had this epiphany as I was driving to my hometown from Austin, for the final time. The month of May thus far had been a bit of whirlwind. I had quit my job, quickly moved out of my house, visited Chicago, couch-surfed (thanks to the few good friends I had in town), said my goodbyes and was on my way. I had taken the leap. I was unemployed and moving back across the country. It was daunting, to say the least.
I had four hours to myself driving home. Just me, a long Texas highway, some Sweet Leaf tea and my iPod. You would think at some point during said drive, the panic would slowly begin to set in.
But it didn’t.
Instead, I enjoyed the sunshine. Sang at the top of my lungs. Relaxed as I got closer and closer to my destination, which is where I would be for about a month before heading back to the Midwest.
And I smiled when I heard ‘Float On’ by Modest Mouse begin to play, courtesy of my road trip mix. This song has held different meanings to me throughout the years, but at that moment, all I heard was: Don’t you worry, we’ll all float on. Even if things seem heavy, we’ll all float on.
Nothing was certain at that moment. But I still knew that somehow, everything would be alright.
So, right now, when things are beginning to feel uncertain all over again, I know that regardless of what heads my way, that everything will be okay. I just need to remind myself every once and a while.