December 20: Beyond avoidance.
What should you have done this year but didn’t because you were too scared, worried, unsure, busy or otherwise deterred from doing? (Bonus: Will you do it?)
I should have spoken my mind.
There were a lot of instances this year, especially when I was in Austin, when I should have said what I was thinking. When I should have stood up for myself. When I should have stood my ground and told (several) people to get over themselves.
But I didn’t. For several, stupid reasons. I didn’t want to fight. Didn’t want to confront. Didn’t want to deal. I was tired. I was over it. For all these reasons, I kept silent and stewed, the words constantly threatening to bubble out of me in their worst form.
So will I do it (from now on)? I hope so. I can’t keep holding back like that. There are proper ways to speak one’s mind and I’m tired of constantly keeping everything in. If I have something to say, I’m going to say it.